My Hello For 2012

Merry Christmas 2011!

Happy new year 2012!

Happy chinese new year 2012!

Wow...four whole months of leaving this blog out in the cold. I am sorry? I guess.

Anyway, here I am, suddenly deciding to blog because I feel like I need to get something out of my mind. People tell me (okay, people as in things i read in the magazines. Hah!) that in order to love my job, I need to do something that I love. In my opinion, I think that is 40% bullshit. The other 60% may be true but I haven't encountered it...yet.

Yes, I know that there are people out there who love their job and are so passionate about it because their job is like their own hobby or something but in my case, its totally different.

I finally got a job doing something that I thought I had talent in and enjoy doing - writing. Seven months down the road, I am having more and more doubts. Is writing really for me? Is my writing skill very good? Do I even enjoy it in the first place? Am I being so syok sendiri thinking that I actually have a writing talent? Bottom line is, i dont think i enjoy writing as much as before.

Doing something I enjoyed made me not enjoy it anymore. Sucks to be me.

Excuse Me, Jealous Beeetch Coming Through

I am jealous of other people living my dream and they know that it's my dream they're living. Not that my dream is fully owned by me. Other people are allowed to have the same dreams as I do but it just hurts so much! Especially when the "other people" are those who are close to me and because of my jealousy, it tears us apart. That hurts even more. The best part is, other people just get the opportunity handed to them or just by chance to live my dream and voila, they're living it. For me, I have to chase it with a club and still not get a hold of it.

Why is it so unfair? What did I do to not deserve to live my dream but watch others flaunt it right at my face instead? Is it because I deserve something better? or is it because I am too weak to know if that's what i really want. I dunno. I just think it sucks that I have to sit at the sidelines, watch everything pass me by and think to myself 'That should be me'. Well, if something way better is coming way, I am still waiting.

I am filled with envy.
There is so much jealousy in me that it's making my heart so bitter and I am not sure how long more will this jealousy stay by my side.

ps: please pardon my unseasonable-ness

Speechless

I have nothing to blog about which explains the long blogging disappearance. next time maybe :)

Photo Post #8

My first ever perfume purchased by none other than, me!



Been dreaming to get the Baby scent from the Harajuku range and after buying this, I realised its the wrong one. Crap. Oh well, next round then. LOL.

One thing about buying a perfume on your own is that you wont wanna use so much because its sooo precious. Or is it just only me?

More Random Thoughts

- Whenever I watch the red carpet coverage on E, I always always always imagine myself being interviewed and having my major celeb crush as my arm candy. Ah...a girl can only dream.

- Just saw this new TV ad for Maxis. The ad is pretty sweet and impressive. The message of the ad is something along the lines of they will put their customers first and what not. Well, I disagree.

- Still not loving Giuliana Rancic.

- I wanna do something to my hair. Make it permanently neater or something. We'll see.

- Can't wait for Glee to premier this week!! Season 3, y'all!

- I will be heading to Port Dickson this weekend for my first ever company trip. Pretty excited and also terrified. I do not work well with obstacle course! LOL. Hope I wont be laughed at tho.

- The little tooth located waaay at the back of my teeth track (???) is giving me problems for the past two days. Seriously irritating!

- I am sooo not like who I was a year ago. I have transformed quite a bit. more in this sooon. LOL, maybe.

- I think JerryMyPug loves me more than anyone else. I can just feel it.

- I bought the scented sand thing for hamsters coz I thought maybe Cleo could use a bath every week but its useless.

That's all I got :)

The Hair Stuff

My colleague is soooo into arts and crafts and she's been making hair clips of late. Looking at her creations make me so jealous because I wish I could do something like that too! When she brought her goodies to work one day, I just fell in love.

A rose hair clip.



Ice cream and cup cake hair clips.



Many more double hair clips.



Aren't they adorbz?? LOL. She makes these to sell and is currently taking orders. I bought myself the ice cream, cupcake and one pair of double hair clips. Teeeheee! Too cute to resist :D

So, if you fancy these kinda accessories, check it all out at http://craft-fabric-addict.blogspot.com/ and place your order :)

Photo Post # 7

Had photo op with two of my favourite people during last week's holiday!

Making a silly face with Ethanwhen he stayed over with us last week.



Testing out my new iPhone by taking a pic of ourselves...on our own, during lunch last Thursday :)

Photo Post # 6

The other day, my colleague was cutting some stuff on her desk and was really concentrating on her work until....



LOL. She snipped off her earphones. And proudly showed it to me. Our office is a very quiet environment so we both had to laugh hysterically...silently. XD